The next day (humor me), she meets Jason outside the Sunday market — and in the first sign that things aren’t going to go well, Becca does not wrap her legs around Jason’s torso as a form of greeting.
Then she makes the poor guy eat crickets! But he has no idea what’s about to hit him. “I have found my best friend, my partner, and what I want to be my fiancée,” he gushes. As they stroll through a temple, Becca makes a joke about decorating a home together with giant stone dragons… and then instantly regrets it. “After I said it, I wanted to take it back right away,” she admits. “Because at that moment, I felt like I couldn’t see him in [my] future.” The Bachelorette is visibly anxious and fidgety, so a female producer suggests they go sit in the shade and talk about what’s making her upset.
As Jason sits alone on some steps nearby, Becca admits that talking about a future with him “felt weird.” Of course it does, honey — because you don’t want to marry him. Ain’t nothin’ wrong with that. Ever the good soldier, Becca pushes through the anxiety and meets Jason for dinner — but as he goes on and on about the “confidence” he has in his love for her, it’s pretty clear that she’s struggling. She tentatively tries to tell Jason that talking about their future together made her feel “a little off,” but then finds herself at a loss for words.
Uh-oh. Becca tries to walk off her nerves, but no amount of pacing will change the fact that it’s time to send Jason home. “Oh my God, I hate myself,” she murmurs in the dark. Meanwhile, poor Jason is just waiting alone at the table, “scared s—less” that something’s about to go very wrong. And as we know, dear rose lovers, his fears are justified. “I can’t put you through an overnight and me through an overnight if it’s not 100 percent there,” Becca says quietly. Jason pushes back, saying if there’s even the tiniest chance that they have “potential” for a future together, she should spend the night with him. Stay strong, girl — your gut knows best!
“I just don’t think that we can get there at the end,” Becca replies, and Jason, though disappointed, accepts her decision at last. “I came into this rooting for your happiness,” he says sadly. “I’ll always leave rooting for your happiness — so I hope you find it.” Good answer, sir! You’ll be okay. As for Becca, she’s going to need some time to get over her guilt.
“I’ve dated terrible people in the past, and he’s such a good person,” Becca says weepily. “That’s why I’m wondering what’s wrong with me.” Girl, other than the fact that you’re trying to choose a mate on TV, nothing is wrong with you. There are three dudes left — unless you want to pitch TLC on a Sister Wives spinoff called Brother Husbands, you’re gonna have to send two of them home. (Next: Glamping with Becca and Garrett)