By David Canfield
April 08, 2019 at 02:00 PM EDT
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"How many hits of marijuana would I need to get through this movie?"

Chelsea Handler asks the question in an extensive clip from the audiobook of her new memoir Life Will Be the Death of Me, which EW can debut exclusively ahead of its official Tuesday release. Read by Handler herself, the book a more complex and revealing portrait of the comic than she's ever previously shown.

Here's the book's official synopsis: "In a haze of vape smoke on a rare windy night in L.A. in the fall of 2016, Chelsea Handler daydreams about what life will be like with a woman in the White House. And then Donald Trump happens. In a torpor of despair, she decides that she's had enough of the privileged bubble she's lived in — a bubble within a bubble — and that it's time to make some changes, both in her personal life and in the world at large.

"At home, she embarks on a year of self-sufficiency — learning how to work the remote, how to pick up dog shit, where to find the toaster. She meets her match in an earnest, brainy psychiatrist and enters into therapy, prepared to do the heavy lifting required to look within and make sense of a childhood marked by love and loss and to figure out why people are afraid of her. She becomes politically active — finding her voice as an advocate for change, having difficult conversations, and energizing her base. In the process, she develops a healthy fixation on Special Counsel Robert Mueller and, through unflinching self-reflection and psychological excavation, unearths some glittering truths that light up the road ahead."

In this exclusive clip (which you can listen to below), what begins as a lightly funny account of another night in Los Angeles for Handler evolves into a reflection on the world around her — and how it's just, dramatically changed.

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