By Christopher Rosen
Updated October 30, 2016 at 12:00 PM EDT
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The reveal during last week’s episode of This Is Us that family patriarch Jack Pearson was dead in the present day left many viewers devastated, but perhaps none more than show star Chrissy Metz.

“I was pissed. I was like, ‘That’s my dad,” Metz, who plays Kate on the show, joked during EW PopFest on Sunday. “I just have this affinity for Milo as Chrissy, and so then it translates in my performance. I hope, anyway.”

“It was emotional for me, and I was a little angry. I’m still working on it,” she added.

Metz’s remarks Sunday echoed what she told EW after the episode aired. “I was distraught. I was like, ‘What the actual hell?’ And what does this mean? And then, we find that Rebecca [Mandy Moore] has married Miguel [Jon Huertas], who is obviously our stepfather for some time,” she said last week. “Jack is everything to Kate and they have this really special bond — and so do Milo and I. So, it was heartbreaking.”

It was revealed during the last episode of This Is Us that Kate had kept an urn full of Jack’s ashes on her mantle, and watched Pittsburgh Steelers football games with it by her side.

“I just imagined myself very very small inside said urn,” Milo Ventimiglia, who plays Jack, said at EW PopFest. “It was one of those things for me where I think about Jack, and I think about his relationship with his wife, and I think about how they raise their children. And at a certain point, lessons stop. When the audience does discover that Jack is no more, it’s like at what point do the lessons to his children, does that love to his wife, stop.”

He added, “I thought it was a really cool moment to be a part of, and I think for all of us it was just thinking about what you take away from your families and the people you love the most.”

Watch a clip from the This Is Us panel above. The show airs Tuesdays at 9 p.m. ET on NBC.

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NBC’s beloved era-hopping drama tells the story of the Pearson family through the years.

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