By Nick Romano
October 21, 2016 at 06:27 PM EDT
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“It came true” is how Anne Hathaway began during her Oscars acceptance speech in 2013. But, as the actress revealed during a recent interview, what we all assumed to be her joyous response was a mask for her true feelings.

“I felt very uncomfortable,” Hathaway recalled to The Guardian of her experience on stage. “I kind of lost my mind doing that movie and it hadn’t come back yet. Then I had to stand up in front of people and feel something I don’t feel which is uncomplicated happiness.”

She continued, ”It’s an obvious thing, you win an Oscar and you’re supposed to be happy. I didn’t feel that way. I felt wrong that I was standing there in a gown that cost more than some people are going to see in their lifetime, and winning an award for portraying pain that still felt very much a part of our collective experience as human beings.”

Hathaway won Best Supporting Actress for her 2012 performance of Fantine in Les Misérables, directed by Tom Hooper and starring Hugh Jackman, Russell Crowe, and Amanda Seyfried. She finished her Oscars speech by saying, “Here’s hoping that someday in the not too distant future the misfortunes of Fantine will only be found in stories and nevermore in real life. Thank you.”

“I tried to pretend that I was happy and I got called out on it, big time,” she told The Guardian. “That’s the truth and that’s what happened. It sucks. But what you learn from it is that you only feel like you can die from embarrassment, you don’t actually die.”

Watch Hathaway give her Oscars acceptance speech below.

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