'I am not at peace,' the rapper says in Facebook post

By Oliver Gettell
Updated October 04, 2016 at 12:00 PM EDT
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Hip-hop artist Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab to deal with “depression and suicidal urges,” according to an emotional statement posted to his Facebook page Tuesday evening.

The 32-year-old rapper and singer, whose real name is Scott Mescudi, wrote, “Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.”

He continued, “Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself.”

Mescudi assured fans that his next album, Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’, is “still on the way,” although he does not expect to participate much in its promotion. The album had been slated to drop last week but was recently delayed. A new release date has yet to be announced.

A Cleveland native, Mescudi first gained notice as a protégé of Kanye West and was a key collaborator on 808s and Heartbreak. He found further success with his debut album Man on the Moon: The End of Day and has released five other albums (one with his rock band WZRD). He also costarred on the HBO series Making It in America.

Mescudi concluded his Facebook statement with a pledge and an apology: “Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like s‑‑‑, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.”

Read his full statement: