By Devan Coggan
Updated August 02, 2016 at 03:18 PM EDT
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After losing his wife earlier this year, comedian Patton Oswalt has written a funny, smart, and emotional piece about loss, comparing grief to Jason Statham and promising to continue his wife’s work.

Oswalt’s wife, true crime writer Michelle McNamara, died unexpectedly in April at the age of 46, leaving behind Oswalt and their 7-year-old daughter, Alice. Oswalt’s lengthy post, which he shared on Facebook, chronicles the 102 days since his wife’s death, writing, “102 days at the mercy of grief and loss feels like 102 years and you have s— to show for it.”

“Depression is the tallest kid in the 4th grade, dinging rubber bands off the back of your head and feeling safe on the playground, knowing that no teacher is coming to help you,” Oswalt wrote. “But grief? Grief is Jason Statham holding that 4th grade bully’s head in a toilet and then f—ing the teacher you’ve got a crush on in front of the class. Grief makes depression cower behind you and apologize for being such a d—.”

Known for launching the website True Crime Diary, McNamara wrote frequently about unsolved murder cases, and after publishing multiple investigative stories about the Golden State Killer, she was working on a book about the case. Oswalt wrote he plans to help finish it and publish it soon.

He also promised that he’ll “start being funny again soon,” adding, “What other choice do I have?”

“And I’m going to start telling jokes again soon,” he wrote. “And writing. And acting in stuff and making things I like and working with friends on projects and do all the stuff I was always so privileged to get to do before the air caught fire around me and the sun died. It’s all I knew how to do before I met Michelle. I don’t know what else I’m supposed to do now without her.”

Read Oswalt’s full post below.