By Derek Lawrence
Updated June 28, 2016 at 10:27 PM EDT

Mamrie Hart’s YouTube videos have been seen more than 50 million times, but she still can’t help being humiliated by her first one.

While at VidCon, the comedian, who has more than a million subscribers on YouTube, not so fondly looked back on her first online video. “I did a soap opera in college called General College, and so that was the first series I did, which you can look up if you’d like to see me completely, completely humiliated,” she told EW.

Hart was attending last week’s VidCon, which brings together many of the most popular online personalities, but she couldn’t help but wish there had been another type of convention for her: “My first crush was Jonathan Taylor Thomas,” Hart shared. “I had a shrine to him in my bedroom. If there had been something like VidCon for the cast of Home Improvement, I’d be standing in a line right now ready to meet JTT.”

Next up for Hart is the film Dirty 30, which she co-wrote and stars in, and will be available in select theaters and iTunes on Sept. 23.

Watch the full video of Hart’s interview above.