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UFC fighter Ronda Rousey was devastated following her November loss to Holly Holm.

“Honestly, my thought I was like, in the medical room and I was down in the corner. I was sitting in the corner like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’ ” Rousey shared on Tuesday’s The Ellen DeGeneres Show. “And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself in that exact second.”

Holm defeated the 29-year-old fighter with a kick to the head almost one minute into round 2 of the highly anticipated Nov. 14 match. Discussing the loss with DeGeneres brought tears to Rousey’s eyes as she recalled her first UFC loss.

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“Maybe winning all the time isn’t what’s best for everybody,” the Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Issue cover star said. “Everyone has their moment of picking themselves off the floor and I’ve gone through several of mine but no one had actually seen me go through it, so maybe I just had to be that example of picking myself off the floor for everyone. Maybe that’s what I’m meant for.”

Rousey — who went on to host Saturday Night Live in January — said looking up and seeing her boyfriend, fellow UFC fighter Travis Browne, helped her get through the moment, and now she doesn’t consider herself a loser. “I really do believe I’m still undefeated,” the California native explains, “because being defeated is a choice.”

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