Lindsey Stirling, the electronic violinist and YouTube star (boasting 7.5 million subscribers, she’s ranked #4 on Forbes’ list of highest earning YouTubers), will release her memoir on Jan. 12. Co-written with her sister Brooke S. Passey, The Only Pirate at the Party will cover Stirling’s childhood, in which her parents struggled financially, and her years trying to make it in the music industry, getting rejected over and over while dealing with other personal issues, like anorexia.

In advance of her memoir’s release date, EW shares an exclusive excerpt, below: