Gwen Stefani dropped her new single, “Used To Love You”, Saturday night at Hammerstein Ballroom. With lyrics like, “I don’t know why I cry / but I think it’s because / for the first time since I hated you / I remembered that I used to love you,” the single is an overwhelmingly moving portrait of female emotion — it’s angry, heartbroken, reflective, vulvernable, and strong.

Tuesday, the No Doubt frontwoman released an equally powerful music video via her Facebook page. Stefani commands the entire frame alone, her face moving through all the song’s emotions of the near-four minute clip. It feels like a voyeuristic peek into some of the artist’s moments of reflection.

When EW chatted with the singer about new music, Stefani admitted that her upcoming third album was not the collection she originally intended to release. Her first attempt at the record was through partnerships, collabs, and working with hitmakers like Benny Blanco but “It didn’t feel right,” she said. “I didn’t feel fulfilled.”

“Used To Love You” seems a direct response to her recent personal tumult; Stefani announced her divorce from her husband of 13 years (and partner for 20) Gavin Rossedale this past August. “I needed to go through what I needed to go through to write the recorded that I needed to write,” she told EW of her process. “These songs are really natrual — they’re not from worry about what happened or what’s going to happen but about living in the moment, from trying to be present and trying to feel.”

“Used To Love You” is streaming below.