By Pamela Gocobachi
Updated October 29, 2013 at 10:02 PM EDT
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Actress Nicole Kidman opened up about marriage and her relationship with former husband Tom Cruise in the latest issue of Vanity Fair magazine. The now 46-year-old actress touched on the high-profile nature of her marriage with Cruise in the 1990s, saying she imagines Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie probably come closest to understanding what it was like for her and Cruise while they were married.

“There is something about that sort of existence that if you really focus on each other and you’re in that bubble, it’s very intoxicating because it’s just the two of you,” said Kidman. “It brings you very close, and it’s deeply romantic. I’m sure Brad and Angelina have that — because there’s nobody else that understands it except that person who’s sleeping right next to you.”

In regards to her current marriage with country singer Keith Urban, Kidman tells the magazine: “With no disrespect to what I had with Tom, I’ve met my great love now. And I really did not know if that was going to happen. I wanted it, but I didn’t want it for a while, because I didn’t want to jump from one relationship to another. I had a lot of time alone, which was really, really good, because I was a child, really, when I got married. And I needed to grow up.”

Kidman and Urban, who married in June 2006, have two children (Sunday Rose, 5, and Faith, 2) and now reside in Nashville, Tenn. The actress says she loves living in Nashville because she’s so far removed from Hollywood and the “business side of it” that’s always present there.

Finally, the actress touched on her current marriage with Urban. While Kidman told Vanity Fair that her current marriage is “very, very peaceful,” she also says it doesn’t come without its own struggles. Kidman’s biggest struggle seems to be figuring out how to give her life to both her family and her career.

“I want to be able to give completely to both, and that doesn’t work always,” said Kidman. “It’s a push-pull. It’s uncharted. My husband and I are in uncharted territory because we’re trying to find artistic expression but also we’re incredibly connected as a family — we’re very, very tight, very, very close and I have a very, very primal protection of my family.”