By Erin Strecker
Updated September 20, 2013 at 03:53 PM EDT
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Amanda Knox spoke with Matt Lauer on the Today show this morning about her upcoming retrial for the 2007 murder of her roommate, Meredith Kercher. Knox, who’d been free after an appeal, returned to the United States in Oct. 2011. In 10 days, the Italian court will re-try her for the crime, but she will not attend the trial.

“Besides the fact that there are so many factors that are not allowing me to go back — financial ones, ones where I’m going to school, ones where I want the court to proceed without distraction,” she explained. “I was imprisoned as an innocent person. It’s common sense not to go back.”

When Lauer pressed her, saying that as a prosecutor not going back sounds like an admission of guilt, Knox countered, “I was already imprisoned as an innocent person in Italy, and I can’t reconcile the choice to go back with that experience. It’s not a possibility, as I was imprisoned as an innocent person and I just can’t relive that.”

Seeming a little dazed as she spoke, it was interesting to not see Knox discuss her innocence more passionately, but perhaps she is just exhausted by the whole process. This will be her third trial, and she discussed how she struggled with thinking about worst-case scenario hypotheticals, including returning to prison.

“I imagine it all the time because I have to think the worst-case scenario,” she explained. “I have to prepare in my mind what that would be like. I thought about what it would be like to live my entire life in prison and to lose everything, to lose what I’ve been able to come back to and rebuild. I think about it all the time. It’s so scary. Everything’s at stake.”

Watch the interview below:

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