'X Factor': Jason Brock says, 'I think Simon didn't like who I was.'
SPOILER ALERT! Thursday night’s eliminated act on The X Factor spoke with press after the show, but if you don’t want to know who the act is, read no further. Everyone else, check out what the act had to say about their elimination below:
Oh, Jason Brock, we hardly knew ye, but we knew ye was fabulous. Brock’s soaring voice and exuberant manner never found the right showcase in The X Factor‘s Xanadome, and he was the first contestant eliminated based on viewer votes for the show’s second season. When Brock spoke with reporters after the show, he remained upbeat, if perplexed as to what else he could have done to win over Simon Cowell as a performer. (It turns out, likely nothing — after Brock’s interview, Cowell had this to say about him to the same group of reporters: “I think other people maybe should have gone [into the Top 13] in his place. I never believed he had a cat in hell’s chance of winning. He is what he is. He’s a nice guy. He’s a cabaret singer. But he hasn’t got the X Factor.”)
Along with his feelings about Simon, Brock had plenty to say about his love of “gays and Japan”; how limited he was to control his own destiny on the show; and where he sees his future after the show. Check out what he had to say below:
How are you?
I’m good. I guess. I go to go with this [outfit], which was very me. And I got to sing “Total Eclipse of the Heart,” which is very me. So I ended on a very me note. And I get to tell everyone my two passions, gays and Japan. [Laughs] I think now people are wondering, “What on earth is he talking about?”
Do you think that was the uphill battle for you on this show — communicating what on earth you are about?
Yeah. Maybe. I just wanted to make a statement, and make sure that gay people got attention, and me being gay got attention. I thought that was kind of important. I want people to know me as a gay person. I just have a connection to that community that I felt was important. And the Japanese part, my boyfriend lives in Japan — he’s Japanese. I personally love Japan, and I visited recently. I want to go back and work there. So, yeah, I just wanted it to be clear that I really love Japan. Please get me a job in Japan!
Can being openly gay hurt you on a show like this?
It makes you wonder, doesn’t it? [Laughs] I think that being gay is a wild card in itself. Like, when you’re gay, some people still aren’t okay with being gay. So there are actually people in the country — maybe a fair percentage, I don’t know how many — who think it’s actually wrong. So I wouldn’t doubt it if it does hurt [to be out on this show], in a way.
What do you think you might have done differently in last night’s performance now that you know the results?
Um, I don’t think I would have done anything differently, because there was nothing in my control that I could have done differently. I think that all the choices I could make, I made the right choices. I felt like I sang every song as all me, from the heart as much as possible. There were some choices that L.A. made that I was not able to change. I kind of had to go with his advice because I trust him. So I can’t change that.
So if you could have changed it, what would you have changed?
[Laughs] I wouldn’t have worn the red jacket, first of all. Those comments were terrible. I was ready to cry all day today because of what Simon said.
About being an Italian restaurant waiter?
Yeah, and that I couldn’t fly, I could maybe go two inches off the ground. Basically making fun of me that I was fat, too. I just think Simon didn’t like who I was. To him, he may not have seen a pop star.
Any conversations with him off camera?
I have, very brief ones. In boot camp, he said it was a pleasure to have me on the show. But, you know, he’s keeps it very brief. He did apologize to me — he just said, “Sorry.” [Laughs] I still accepted it, and thought that was nice that he apologized. That was after my first performance in my zebra jacket, with touching the naked dancer and Mario [Lopez]’s butt. But actually, that [performance], I could handle the criticism. I thought, okay, I got criticized; it’ll be better next time. And then I did “I Believe I Can Fly” in the red jacket, and I didn’t think it was outlandish. It was a really sincere and great performance, and he didn’t like that either and he still managed to make fun of my appearance. If I could have done something different, I would have a different song that first time, instead of [the] Jennifer Lopez [hit “Dance Again”]. But I wouldn’t have changed this song [i.e. “I Believe I Can Fly”]. I thought this song was great. I just would’ve worn the black jacket.
Is a small part of you relieved now?
[Laughs] Yes, there is a bit of relief, absolutely. It was hard getting that kind of feedback, and I wondered if it would go on forever. Is Simon always going to hate me? I didn’t want to hear that. I was going to keep trying, but there is a bit of relief because I don’t have to try to win anymore. It’s so hard to try to win a competition like this, but I’m proud that I came this far.
Happy you don’t have to go through that leaderboard experience, with the new list of everyone’s vote tally in the competition?
I think it’s very interesting. I was like, I don’t like that, because if I’m in, I don’t want to know that I’m number 12 or whatever. That would totally suck. I think it adds pressure, more and more pressure. The X Factor is high pressure. Who will crack first? I don’t know. Carly might go off and kill Beatrice, you never know. [Laughs] I’m just kidding! She would never do that!
Where do you see yourself in the future?
I’ve said this, but I’m kind of serious. I see myself having a talk show, and I do see myself recording an album, for sure. And beyond that, I’m not sure yet. It’s a little bit unknown right now.
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