Nearly two decades ago, Rock and Roll Hall of Famer Gregg Allman of the Allman Brothers Band headlined sold-out concerts across the country. Behind the scenes, he was tussling with unsuccessful marriages to six different women including Cher, substance abuse, and a battle with hepatitis C. The result: the stories chronicled in My Cross to Bear (out May 1).

In the revealing memoir, the musician opens up about his rocky past, including the defining moments after he discovered the death of his older brother in a motorcycle accident. Allman recounts what it was like to lose his brother in this exclusive clip from the enhanced version of the e-book:

Allman also offers up larger-than-life scenes from his career in music. He divulges the tension and chaos that eventually led the Allman Brothers to split and his struggle to emerge from the ashes of the band as a successful solo artist.

Check out what the musician had to say about a venue that makes a fan think “he’s playing that right to me.”

This isn’t the first book to tell the story of the drug-riddled heyday of the Allman Brother Band, so how is My Cross to Bear different? See what Allman had to say in the clip below:

Intrigued by Gregg Allman’s behind-the-scenes tale? Think music from the Allman Brothers Band will take on a whole new meaning with this backstory?

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