Earlier this month, Michelle and Jim Duggar — stars of TLC’s 19 Kids and Countingannounced the sad news that Michelle had lost their 21st child to miscarriage. (She previously lost another child to miscarriage, in her second pregnancy.) Days later, the couple also announced they would hold a memorial for the child, who was to be named Jubilee Shalom Duggar. But the couple continues to remember their late daughter.

Michelle has released an audio letter dedicated to Jubilee, in which she tells her miscarried daughter that she “will not forget you. I will look forward to meeting you one day.” But Michelle also uses the letter as an opportunity to touch upon societal views regarding her large brood: “So often in society, babies are looked upon as a problem trial or responsibility,” she says in the tape. “But God says babies are a blessing. We do not believe that babies are a bother, a headache, or a financial drain or a crareer interrupter. We love babies. Your siblings did not view you as the competition. They are truly saddened and disappointed to not have really known you … You were not loved any less because you were baby No. 21.”

Michelle continues on to speak about the miscarriage itself, “It’s an awesome thought to me that you fulfilled your life’s purpose in such a short time … From now on, when I’m asked how many children I have, the answer will be 21 — 19 here and two in heaven. You are precious to me, Jubilee. Mommy loves you.” Listen to the audio after the jump.

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