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Adam Duritz, the lead singer of ’90s hitmakers Counting Crows, is battling his issues with an apparent mental illness, and the medication prescribed to treat it.

And though he’s not enjoying the process, it seems he’s slowly but surely winning. Yesterday he turned to the Crows’ Who Say page to give an update on the painstaking progress he’s made. The withdrawal symptoms aren’t helping the recording of their new album much, he recounts.

“I stopped dropping the meds dosages for recording. Couldn’t shake uncontrollably & sing at the same time. Forgivable. But…I got home. Docs Friday instructions: cut Lithium dose in half-F*** me–not so good now. Gotta keep pushing/get off this s***. Going faster than I should but it still takes too long. All my friends say how clear & present I am. ‘Clear & present.’ Horror. Not mutually exclusive.”

He also assures his fans that he wasn’t addicted to drugs. Rather, the medicine prescribed by his doctor is tough to stop using. “These are not drug addiction problems,” he continues. “I was f***ing crazy. I needed meds. I took meds. Now I’m less crazy. I need less meds. I’m stopping meds. That’s it. These meds just happen to have some freaking vicious withdrawal symptoms when you stop so you can’t do it all at once.”

In 2008 Duritz revealed to Men’s Health Magazine that he suffered from, “a form of dissociative disorder that makes the world seem like it’s not real.” Though, he hasn’t confirmed if he’s still suffering from that specific condition.

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