Eliza Dushku, who played Faith on the hit show Buffy the Vampire Slayer, is opening up about her battle with drug and alcohol abuse, recalling her first experience with illegal substances at just 14 years old.
“It was fun, and I loved it, until it wasn’t,” Dushku, 36, said on Tuesday at the New Hampshire Youth Summit on Opioid Awareness in Manchester, New Hampshire. “Drugs didn’t love me. They didn’t love my family. They definitely didn’t love my friends that died.”
Dushku, a Watertown native, spoke candidly about her journey, noting that she has been sober for eight years. She credits her loved ones with her recovery.
“I got sober for my family,” she said. “But today, I’m sober for me, and I’m sober for you. Because drugs and alcohol are powerful, but we are more powerful.”
She spoke of her days on the show, saying that she could relate to the recurring theme of difficult high school days.
“It can be so scary,” she said. “I just remember, I loved the first time I took a drug because I loved the way it made me feel. I loved the way it made me not feel. I didn’t have to feel.”
The Bring it On actress encouraged listeners to seek help if they are struggling. And she revealed that she is fulfilling a life-long dream of attending college.
“I’m a good person, but when I did drugs and I drank, I didn’t make good decisions,” Dushku said. “I’m sure some of you can relate to that, but all it takes is one bad decision.”
Dushku later tweeted a message about her revealing address, writing, “If I said 1 thing that may have helped 1 person today – I’m grateful. #addiction #recovery.”
This article originally appeared on People.com