“You didn’t mean to,” Amelia says a couple times in this episode. It’s what she says when she wants to absolve someone of guilt, when she wants them to remember that accidents happen. The main accident in this episode is a big one, though — so big that recovering from it will take a lot more than just a mantra.
Two 8-year-old boys find a gun in the house, and one ends up shooting the other while the babysitter is cooking them food. The victim’s mom kept one locked in a drawer in her bedroom, but apparently that hiding place wasn’t as good as she thought it was. He ends up surviving, though he will probably never walk again. Meanwhile, his friend — the shooter, Peter — is terrified. What child wouldn’t be? Here he was, probably thinking that the gun was just a fun new toy, harmless. And now his friend is paralyzed. This is heavy stuff for anyone, especially someone as young as this.
At the end of the episode, Amelia sits in front of Peter to tell him what happened. That’s when she advises he keep telling himself, “You didn’t mean to.” Amelia isn’t always my favorite person, but in this moment, she is kind and sensitive and says exactly what Peter needs to hear. She’s the same way later when Owen admits to her that he’s the one who told his sister to get on the chopper, to do it to get away from Riggs, and that he blames himself for her disappearance. “You didn’t mean to,” she says, hugging him from behind. Amelia’s usually the one struggling, so it’s refreshing to see her in the caretaker’s position for a change.
The whole shooting incident riles up everyone — including Maggie, who’s realizing how attached she is to Meredith’s children. She basically interrogates the poor babysitter, asking what was so important that she turned her back on the two boys long enough for them to find a gun and shoot it. Riggs luckily sees what’s happening and steps in but not soon enough: The babysitter is visibly upset because this emotional doctor is essentially accusing her of letting this happen. Someone needs to get her a pint of Ben & Jerry’s, stat.
Afterward, Maggie calls the babysitter for Meredith’s kids just to check in. Later, she expresses to Meredith how she doesn’t know how to handle her love for them, that she worries she would die if anything happened to any of them. “I don’t know how you live like this,” she says. This is kind of coming out of nowhere, but maybe it just feels like that because we rarely see them actually interact with the kids aside from very occasional glimpses. Either way, Maggie’s intense love for them is incredibly sweet, and it’s genuinely heartwarming to see her and Meredith have a conversation about it.
NEXT: Can’t Callie and Arizona just get along?