After last week’s weird, occasionally emotional, generally unsatisfying two-hour episode, this episode (thankfully only one hour) was a return to Grey’s of episodes past—and while the normalcy was welcome, the hour was mostly disappointing.
Part of this disappointment came from the new interns’ arrival because, first of all, who actually cares about new interns? And second of all, who actually cares about new interns when Derek died two episodes ago? Oh, did you forget about that? Because Grey’s did.
Okay, okay, that’s not entirely fair: Meredith and Amelia did have a tense moment near the end of the episode about his death. Amelia’s been upset that Meredith didn’t wait for her to pull the plug on Derek, and all that anger is finally bubbling to the surface in an extremely unproductive but extremely understandable way.
Looking back, it was strange that Meredith didn’t call anyone before she decided to let him go. But not that strange. As she explains, “I didn’t call anyone. I needed time.” It’d be easy to call Meredith selfish—after all, Derek is Amelia’s brother—but, at the same time, she was in shock. The worst thing that could happen to her was happening to her, so who could really expect her to remember to alert people to what was going on? Who could really expect anything out of her at that moment?
Also, what’s done is done. Amelia can be mad at Meredith, but Derek is dead and there’s no changing that. It’s clear that Amelia’s having a hard time accepting that though—”I’m a neurosurgeon,” she tells Meredith. “I could have saved him.” That’s what she keeps repeating: that she could have saved him. Meredith, somehow maintaining her composure, calmly tells her there’s nothing she could have done, which is probably true. Even if it isn’t, again, what’s done is done.
There’s no need to take sides here because both responses make sense within the context of grief. They’re both struggling, and Amelia’s taking her anger that her brother is dead out on her sister-in-law. It’s not the healthiest thing to do, but it isn’t Amelia being crazy or irrational. It’s Amelia feeling—actually feeling, like what Owen advised her to do in the previous episode. And that is healthy.
But there are consequences. As soon as Amelia leaves, Meredith breaks down in violent sobs. Imagining the guilt and sadness she must feel at that moment is enough to make my stomach turn. Not only is she without her husband, but now his sister is mad at her for something she can’t fix.
It’s not all bad for Mer, though. At the end of the episode, she admits to Alex that she doesn’t feel at home anymore. “I go home every night to my house and it’s not my house. It was my and Derek’s house. And now he’s gone,” she says. “And it really just feels like a house.” She wants to be home, though—don’t we all?—so asks if she and the kids can crash with him for a while. He says yes, of course. Looks like Alex is about to be taking on some dad-like duties (which will probably make the grumpy Karev even more lovable than he already is).
All this is happening on the day Webber and Catherine are supposed to get married. But, alas, this is Grey’s Anatomy, and weddings just don’t happen on Grey’s Anatomy. A tunnel crashes during the morning commute, sending the hospital rushing to save the victims—and sending both Webber and Catherine to the ER. “This is number 537 why you and I are made for one another,” Webber tells Catherine once he realizes they both are prioritizing work over their wedding.
NEXT: The wedding’s off.