For many, a new year calls for endless resolutions. But for General Hospital‘s Kimberly McCullough, 2016 will serve as a year of healing.
The actress-director took to her blog on Sunday to candidly speak about what she gained and lost this past year. While McCullough shared her accomplishments with fans — being offered the opportunity to direct an episode of Pretty Little Liars, to name one — she also bravely recounted suffering a late-term miscarriage during her second trimester.
“My heart was so full and then it broke,” she writes of losing her baby daughter, shortly after her 13-year-old dog, Melba, passed away.
“It was too much. I didn’t need to learn this lesson. I wasn’t interested,” she continues. “But I wasn’t in control. These things happen and no, I don’t believe they happen ‘for a reason.’ I’m still processing, still healing, but anyone who has gone through it knows, losing a baby at 22 weeks is tragic. One thing I am proud of however was that I allowed myself to be happy and to relish the moment. I sat in all that goodness and I can recall those feelings (when I’m having different ones) and hope that it can be like that again.”
Despite the traumatic experience, McCullough, who will be working on a movie this year, is keeping her head up.
“Not to go total Oprah on you, but at the end of this year and the beginning of the next, I am grateful for it all,” she concludes her post. “Tired. But grateful.”